Dear friend, you know who you are. I miss you and love you. At one point we became great friends and I will never forget the bond that we have. But I haven’t seen you in over a year and I worry about you and your child.
Dear friend, I know that it may be awkward for you to sustain our friendship at this time. I know that we met through abuser M whom I no longer speak to. I know that your husband is his best friend. I know that your husband loathes me. I know that you still have contact with abuser M through your husband at times and that scares me. Do you remember the incident when you were pregnant and abuser M thrust a knife towards your face numerous times as if it were a joke? I will never forget the look of horror on your face. What you felt that night was how I felt every single day I spent with abuser M. But I know that you too experience something similar with your husband on a daily basis and don’t realize that it isn’t healthy. I understand.
Dear friend, although I love you and will always be here for you and your child you have abandoned me and my cause. I remember when you told me that you loved me and supported me and was glad that I escaped abuser M. I hope that one day I will have the opportunity to say the same for you and your abusive husband.
Dear friend, don’t worry… I understand why you fled from our friendship. There are many reasons. You are terrified. The truth that I confront you with is too hard for you to swallow. You can’t handle the fact that you know I know you deserve better. Both your husband and your brother-in-law hate me and you know why. You do not believe in unconditional love because you have never truly experienced and nurtured it in your relationships. All that you know in family life is dysfunctional. You believe that your abusive family life is normal and will never change. You feel hopeless, worthless, abandoned, helpless, loveless, degraded and alone. I wish you knew that I think the world of you and you are not alone.
Dear friend, do you remember the time that abuser M and I hid a pre-paid cell phone in your front yard bushes because your husband was being abusive and isolated you from everyone by shutting off your phone? The pre-paid cell phone was my idea of course. You had no way to contact anyone and you had an infant. What if an emergency were to have happened? What if you or your child needed help but had no way to reach anyone? I could not stomach the thought of that hence the reason for bringing you the cell phone. I wonder if you ever used that pre-paid cell phone for an emergency or if it is still there hidden in the bushes in front of your old apartment?
Dear friend, do you remember the time that you were ready to abandon your husband? I will never forget that day. You packed your car, you had a plan and you were ready to leave. Somehow the hills around your house caught fire before you managed to leave and you ultimately decided that you could not leave your husband. I still wonder to this day how the fire started and why it started on the day that you were ready to leave.
Dear friend, what concerns me the most about the domestic violence that occurs in your home is the lifelong negative impact that it is having on your child. You know better than anyone else that I cannot and will not tolerate child abuse and neglect. I will never forget how your child was obviously terrified of it’s father at only a few years old. I don’t even want to think about how your child views it’s father today. I remember that your child mimicked it’s father’s abusive actions and intimidating facial expressions. I remember that your husband would feed alcohol to your child. I witness this abuse numerous times and told you but it never mattered enough for you to leave him. There was a time however that I fed your child ice cream and you were so upset with me that you did not speak to me for some time. Think about the irony.
Dear friend… I plea with you that if you do not have the motivation to keep yourself safe, please try to have that motivation for your child. Your child is a witness to the terror that you experience every day. Your child will not forget. The memories will be stored inside of your child whether it remembers or not. And your child will act out on those memories later unless you can manage to break the cycle within your family before it’s too late.
Dear friend, I love you very much and understand that you cannot be here for me at this time but please know that I will be ready to stand by your side when the time comes and you need me. You do have the power and ability to stop the violence in your home. It is up to you to make the decision. I had the power to leave and so do you. When you are strong enough to make the decision to be courageous and leave the abuse once again, you know how to find me.
Your Friend Forever,